Thoughts

Life has been pretty frantic lately. The only thing that keeps me going is work and the process of building. It’s almost therapeutic. Like a few months ago, I didn’t have the slightest idea that Astro existed. I didn’t even want to migrate my personal blog, which was perfectly fine in its state. But once I learned about Astro, I wanted to. For all that speed and flexibility. Thanks to AI-enabled development, in just two days with Gemini and Codex I migrated it all without a sweat. And out of the process, I also managed to build my own design system and an open source comment system, Discuss.

This morning, when I wanted to log my thoughts about this, the MDX file in the IDE environment wasn’t exactly that welcoming. I immediately evaluated some headless CMS options, but eventually, with AI at my disposal I started building one myself. Eight hours later, throwing TipTap and some git workflow ideas into Gemini, I now have my own Git-based CMS coupled to Lucid’s codebase and content types, cleanly separating editorial side and development.

This is likely how it’s going to be from now on! Like creating your own image, explainers, music, products can be built at the speed of thought too. Interesting times!

I’ve been consistent with my dream journals now. Some preliminary observations validate that Wake Back to Bed (WBTB) is very effective in invoking lucid dreams. But I also find an adjacently emerging pattern where the lucidity is most deep when the previous night’s events were influenced with intense emotion (grief). This, combined with me waking up around 5 AM in distress and falling back to sleep in that emotional state is influencing the lucid dreams somehow differently. Grief influences REM in a way that no other techniques can replicate. The ‘emotion’ could be the key! It helps the brain reach somewhere that it can’t reach normally with other techniques, giving more depth and meaning to the dreams.

Had a series of lucid dreams in the morning. Used a few dreams to test out a few things. In the first experiment, I started dropping a pointy silver rod on the floor. This is to test the idea if I could maintain a consistent geometry and physics of an object in the imagery. As expected, the rod’s tip had no consistency between the hits. It kept deforming, or perhaps, ‘refreshing’ per hit.

The other experiment was to draw a perfect shape on a blackboard. I tried drawing a square. But the more I tried to focus on the shape, the more demanding the task got.

And then in another set of dreams , I tried to manifest my mom and wife. But the moment I focused on them, the dreams collapsed. Either I need more training, or manifesting new people inside an already constrained and established dream might need a different approach.

I was lost in thoughts and work when a flock of birds were cheering and screaming at something. Went out, and found a lot of them on the wall, looking at their peers hunting for black ants. I knew they’d fly away if I stepped any closer, so I observed from a distance.

And then I saw just two birds, perched on the gate alone. Reminded me of my mom and wife. And then the thoughts cascaded! Birds eat ants! Ants! That word led me to the memory of two ants dragging a wounded one the other day when it was accidentally stepped on. Perhaps they fixed it? And it ended up as bird food? What!?

It didn’t stop there. It made me think about the wild. The actual wild! Where a cub gets eaten just because the lioness decides that it won’t cut it! Like, why go all the trouble to just end up gone in a minute?

It reminded me that I’d be the most stupid person in the universe if I think that there’s nothing before or after. There’s no void!

Interoperable internet is an idea that’s worth investing resources into. Apart from bridging communities, it can help shift the authority back to the public. Undeniably the only solution to solve the tech lock-in disease! Rancid platforms like Facebook and Twitter are the prime suspects who are desecrating the open web. This shall very well pave the way to a more complicated interoperable space of IMs.

For a life that is destined to the safe haven a blue recluse, my reminiscences keep me intact.

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